I don’t usually speak publicly about my personal life, my struggles, my dreams etc. But when Linda Grasso, editor of Ventura Blvd Magazine, for whom I have contributed articles and photography, approached me with the idea of being interviewed on her women’s podcast, "SheSez: Crafting Your Next Chapter," I thought, why not? Maybe my story will inspire or inform women who face some of the similar challenges I did as a wife and mother.
The one thing I knew when I was raising my family in the1980's and 90’s was that if I didn’t chart a course for my own personal fulfillment, I would regret it for the rest of my life.
I had lived through the 1960s. It was a time of idealism—redefining cultural values and institutions, promoting self-actualization, awareness of women’s issues and rights. These ideas permeated the music, books, movies and fashion of my adolescence and quite literally shaped my identity. So, the idea that I would do something meaningful with my life was a given.
When I discovered dance at the age of sixteen, it fit right into my narrative. Through dance, I could communicate ideas, express myself and contribute something of value to our culture. By eighteen, I knew I was going to pursue a life on the stage.
But when I married at the age of 21 and quickly became the mother of three, I realized that owning my own life was much more difficult than I had expected. Sacrifices had to be made. My dream of becoming a professional dancer, which required an enormous amount of time and commitment, faded under the weight of responsibility.
While photographing my young children, I discovered a new passion in the art of photography. This is when I understood my true calling as a visual artist, and set out to make a name for myself as a dance and portrait photographer.
When Linda Grasso and I spoke candidly on her podcast about balancing family and career, I recalled how I had made some difficult, soul-searching decisions, faced emotional challenges and ultimately achieved personal fulfillment as a wife, mother and career photographer.
It’s my pleasure to share our 30-minute chat on SheSez Podcast: Craft Your Next Chapter with you. I hope you find meaning in it and would love to hear your feedback in the comments.